im really emotional lately. i want to just lash out at people. i sit here in fron tof the computer all day because of my foot i really cant do shit else. and i sit here listening to music, and you know what happens when i listen to music, it inspirse emotion and passions either positive or otherwise. so yea, i have been wanting to seriously lash out and really hurt people just to know that someone else is hurting too. thts the only thing that makes me feel better, other peoples pain!

my past is coming back to haunt me in a big way. it has a lot to do with me leaving austin, its bringing back a lot of forgotten anger and memories of when and why i had to leave phoenix.